The peaceful music broadcast on CBC2 only seemed to heighten the fact that I was waiting and had been waiting for a long time. I have felt constrained. As I dwelled on this pause of life, two choruses rang in my head by Blowin' in the Wind Dylan and Pacing the Cage by Cockburn. I also re-read a rant I wrote a while back:
“It is so difficult to write. I feel like a bomb, which is exploding in a vacuum. How do I make my voice heard, all the passions pent-up in me, all the emotions, how can I possibly express them without being constrained? How to be proper, serious, respectable ease out little of my passion? I want it to envelop the reader. Should I abandon all and just write, with no obligations or responsibilities, something inside me tells me not to, that this is wrong. Where was I programmed and where did I learn these things. Who am I, who made me, and who has influenced me? I am going to be misunderstood anyway so I should let it all hang out and not bother with interpretation, who understands my interpretation? Why should I suffer for a little bliss in pleasing people? There is so much to me and intentionally I will not clarify this statement, I am so eclectic I do not know what is my prominent source. I want to do it my way, not the way CS did it or anyone else. No boundaries. Why are there so many rules? Because we only care for ourselves.”
Last night I watched Hidden Land and Bela talked about how long it takes to find your own style, a journey I am still on.
Anyway after the dentist I picked up a copy of UHF and much to my delight found the article "The High Fidelity Digital Jukebox." This article, though not explicitly, confirmed my conclusion that Apple Lossless is the way to go. On the whole it is an awesome magazine that takes much care in testing and in answering correspondence, but I wish there was a version of this magazine that dealt more with new technology. If you know of one let me know. UHF has 3 relatively recent articles on the subject and they talk of doing more so the future looks bright. I am most interested in streaming music from my computer via Wi-Fi or LAN in a Hi-Fi manner. Any help would be appreciated.